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“I’m one day away from being 20, and I’m on my knees begging for God to take over my story. I have no idea what my heart wants. I have no idea where to go anymore. God please heal me. Please take these struggles. I miss feeling like I can live a full life and […]

On College…

I’m sending out cards with pictures of me in a cap and gown, and there’s this red tassel perfectly framing my face that I spent $14 on to show that I am graduating from a school four years ago I had no idea I would even get into. My smile is authentic and I can […]

22 Candles

I turn 22 in five days. This new year feels like a big step, bigger than almost any before. This is the year I graduate and will hopefully start working and doing something I love. Everything about this time feels surreal. I know I am lucky to be here, but I’m really starting to understand […]

When to No Longer Put Out the Fire

I feel like I’m failing… or maybe like I’m falling slowly and I can’t quite figure out how to make sure I land correctly. Either way, it’s an anxious feeling that I can’t snap out of. Anxiety has taken over my life for awhile. It rears its ugly head in the strangest of ways like: I […]

December 25, 2015

Unlike most everyone else, my 2016 didn’t begin on January 1st. I started measuring my past year on December 25th, 2015. What an odd day to start a year. What an odd way to measure the days that have passed, but here I am writing on the days surrounding the 25th, the day when I feel like […]

Thursday Night Thoughts

The words don’t come out as easy these days. The sit at the back of my throat, curled like smoke that’s choking me out. I’m afraid of saying something that doesn’t mean anything. I’m afraid of not finding my niche, which seems to be a theme in my life nowadays. I feel very aimless these […]

September…

The past few months I’ve been searching for my perfect ending. Wouldn’t it be so nice for me to be able to write this post and tell you that everything has worked out? That I’m successful, healthy, happy, and maybe even that I love someone? I’ve always been a fan of happy endings, so why […]

Put on your brave face

I don’t have a reputation for physical bravery. I’m not the girl who can jump into the water from a high spot, you won’t find me going into areas that I’m not supposed to, and you can bet all of your money that I will NEVER be willing to touch/see/be in the presence of any […]

Surrender

I have a place: a place where I go to be by myself, a place where I go to hide away, if only for a minute. {It used to be in the arms of someone I loved, until I realized that places can’t have a beating heart. Beating hearts too often walk away, and sometimes […]

Small + Close

Real talk: I am a tiny human. I can shop in the little girls section, the only problem being that I sometimes show up to church in the same outfit as a 7 year old. My mom calls it petite, but I’m straight up about it. I am small, And it’s been like that my […]